There's no such thing as "back to normal"

....after a tragedy such as this.

 I know it's been pretty depressing over here, but I've never been one to hide feelings.  I am making an effort  to be myself again.  I do want to show my nephew that he can be happy again someday so I try not to get emotional in front of him.  He's 21 years old but he'll forever be my sister's first baby.  The baby I used to hold on a rocking chair and change diapers for.  Who followed me around and called me "Ann-shell".  So watching his face today as they put her in the ground I almost lost control of myself.  I told his friends to keep surrounding him.  They've been great and I'm thankful for that.  I'll take him to bring some flowers to her grave sometime this week.


I was thinking about maybe organizing a sign waving event.  Like a "Don't Drink and Drive" poster waving group at the place where it happened one weekend or 2 as we get closer to the Holidays.  I'm not exactly sure how much good it will do since by now I've known 3 people who've been affected by Drunk Driving. But it might be something healthy to do instead of focusing on how angry we all are.  I'm not sure, I'll have to think about it.  I wouldn't even know where to start but it's been on my mind.  I don't want to be a Debbie Downer, my gosh,  it's the Holiday Season.  People will be celebrating at parties and having a good time, I don't expect us all to adhere to new prohibition laws.  It was just something I was thinking about maybe doing that could get our energies focused on something proactive instead of all the negative thoughts that we're all having.  Anyone have any ideas let me know.....


Other than I don't have anything to report.  I have a routine blood exam starting on Monday with Thyrogen injections(for an accurate reading without the misery of going off Synthroid) but I'm not even worried about it. All signs have been pointing to good health (except for my damn ankle!) for over 2 years now and my doctor doesn't expect any changes.  Anyway, I hope everyone is having a great weekend and I'll be blog visiting and catching up as much as I can this week.

I'm off to visit my sis today

I'll be home in a few days.  I was hoping to get my beauty blog up and running before I left but it's taken me longer than I thought to organize  all my ideas and such.  I did teach myself how to record and edit videos with my little HDwebcam and started shopping around for one I can use away from the computer.  But for now the one I have is decent enough.  I even have a couple of people who've said yes to interviews and a few tips to share.  I was hoping my new camera would record videos because I thought it would be super funny to record my sister and I trying to glue fake lashes on together since neither of us really know how to do it right. But it doesn't do videos.  Oh well.   I might still try with my old cam, it will just turn out grainy but I'm sure it'll be funny anyway.

My first flight has already been delayed thanks to the weather so I hope I won't miss my connection but I'd rather arrive late and ALIVE so I'm not going to stress out over it. I'm excited to see my nephews, it's been a little over a year.  I have all kinds of gifts for them from San Diego and a bunch of stuff for my sister that I know she can't get up there.   Anyway peeps, have a good weekend!  All those flying today, take it easy.